Waiting for the Sun...

Don't want to get too complicated. But it gets so dark that I can't see. Yeah it's a mad mad world. But I'm hoping...I'm tired of living in the shadows. But I'm not giving up on me. Yeah it's a sad sad world. But I'm waiting... *How long, O Lord?...How long must I wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart? But I TRUST in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me.* *Psalm 13*

Friday, July 28, 2006

Random Love Quotes

Ok, I just got this e-mail, and it made me laugh. It was all these quotes about what kids think love is. Funny! :) Here's my favorites.

"Love is when Mommy sees Daddy all smelly and sweaty and still says he's handsomer than Robert Redford."

"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."

"Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a guy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, and then he wears it every day."

"When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you."

Oh wow...that made me laugh. In the words of Tigger, "TTFN, Ta Ta For Now!" HA!

*C

The Dynamic Duo

Oh wow....my feet are filthy and black, my nails are in dire need of a good cleaning, my hair stinks like hairspray, I am SO exhausted.........but I LOVE it. :)

Ha. Week 5 of camp is DONE already!?! I can hardly believe that. This last week went by SO fast, which kind of sucks, cuz it was a really good week for pretty much all the staff. I was the "Assistant to the Assistant Director" this week, and it was REALLY weird, but really good for me, too. It was nice to not have a cabin, but half the time I didn't know what to DO with myself. There really was not alot to do, so I had to kind of figure out where I fit, and that took pretty much all week.

I was responsible for the music stuff, which really isn't that much, but I just dreaded that. It turned out pretty good, I think...it's hard to know, cuz I dont' really get a ton of feedback. I also had to do something SO simple and small and silly, and I was just...SO not impressed about that. All I had to do was explain a game to all the kids. "WHY was that such a big deal?" is what I asked myself when I did it. :) I'm just so afraid to go out of my comfort zone with some things. It's stupid really.

Aside from all my griping and groaning about having to do such little things, the week was AWESOME! Some of the cutest kids EVER were there. ETHAN!!! Oh I LOVE that kid!!! :) He's like 50 pounds, with crazy blond hair, big clue eyes, and he kinda looks like SpongeBob to me and a few other people. :) HO man...he is just about the cutest and FUNNIEST kid on the planet. He made me laugh really hard many times this week. :) For all the random counselors who read this and know what I'm talking about; "Kaleb, HOW are we going to survive???" Oh joy...that is great.

Ok, so before the whole week at camp, I stayed over at Kaleb's parents' house on Saturday night, and that was SO much fun. It was pretty much just me and Kaleb all day until Ori and Keshia showed up, and then we went a watched the sunset from Saskatoon "Mountain". :) It's not much of a mountain, but WOW was it gorgeous up there, and the temperature was exactly perfect. It was beautiful. It was really nice to finally kind of get to know Keshia (we talked till like 2:30 in the morning or something like that) and to relax and do random stuff with Kaleb. We went quadding (acutally alot slower than I thought we would :), laughed so hard at his mom, played cards (10-2 for me), and harrassed some gross fat old cows. It was great. :)

Alright, enough of this. I'm SO tired, but it's only 6, and I'm home alone....soo......I'll go play the piano. :) OH...."The Dynamic Duo"...riiiiight. That's what Randy called me and Kaleb pretty much every morning in staff meeting this week. That was awkward...but really funny. Randy is a random man.....Randy the Random.

Yeah. I'm tired.

...Oh Alanis, "You Learn"...what a gooder. I'm gonna go turn it up. :) Later days!

*Caitlin

Friday, July 21, 2006

The Corn Club...?

Yup, that's the cabin joke of the week. Oh dear. We all had "corn names" like "Corn Cow" or "Corn Chip". I am Corn Cake. Isn't that cute? BAH! :)?

Oh man, I had the WORST cabin I've ever had this last week. WOW, brutal! But God definitely helped me persevere. I know he did, cuz there is no way I could have handled that cabin without him. :) This week coming up I'm "Assistant Program Director", which is just a fancy way of saying I don't have to counsel (yes!), and I'll be helping with games and other "little" things that need doing. So that will be nice....I get a cabin to myself unless I share it with a kitchen helper or something. Hooray for not reading the Narnia books till I loose my voice every night! :)

Ashley's wedding is in less than a month, which is incredibly weird. I'm excited though. Lots of people from highschool and youth group times will be there, so it will be nice to see those people before school starts again. Speaking of seeing people, I saw Jenice (she was in Alaska for 6 weeks) on Wednesday. She and Robyn and Ashley Braun came to visit at camp, and I was SOOOOOOO glad to see them! Wow, that was a bad day. So God's timing was perfect. :) It was really good for me to see them.

I would love to write more, but I feel a cold coming on, and that's never good at camp expecially. So to bed I go! WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've never been so excited to go to bed at 9 ish. :)

Corn Cake....OUT!

*C

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Calvin and.....Klein?

Oh dear. Calvin and Klein was my campers' joke of the week....and oh how we LAUGHED and LAUGHED over that. Wow, this week was SO tough, but so good. This 1st junior high week was really good with my cabin, they were SUCH sweeties (SQUEET to you Eagles out there) :) and we had some really good talks and fun times. This week my cabin was alot older (grade 9/10 rather than 7/8) and they did NOT like to talk about themselves EVER. In Bible Study their answers were really general, never ever personal and they rarely answered my questions when I talked to them indiviually.

Music in the mornings was So discouraging for me...I jsut felt like I was doing a crappy job. AND for a part of the week I was actually REALLY frustrated with Darren. (the director) I felt like I couldn't do anything right by his standard. I know that his opinion is not the be all and end all, but it is important to me, cuz he's good at...camp. :) But on Wednesday (I think) Darren talked to me about it, and he said that I was doing an "awesome" job. He said he would take me and Dalen (the other returning senior) on our worst days over some people on their best day. :) He was like, that sounds awful. But I got it. :)

Then on Friday during Bible study, one of my girls said, "I'm not a Christian, but I was thinking aobut what a difference it would make if I was one.) Which was jsut huge. And at the upper campfire that night, another one of my girls said, "I've learned that I can be myself, because that's how God made me, and he loves me just like that, because I'm me." Which was also huge for me, cuz that's something I'm learning and that I told her. THEN a guy camper said that he is learning that he can hear God speak to him in many ways, and this week he heard God in songs. I was so confused.

HOW can I feel like I'm SO inadequate and feel like God just is not or cannot use me, and then wham, there's evidence that he did use me. I know I did NOT work in those kids' lives, cuz I screwed up alot and didn't seem to get anywhere with anyone in my cabin. And for some reason, God chose to use my fumbling and poor attempts at "spiritual conversations" and music. Weird.

Anyway, that was the best best BEST part of camp so far. This week will be hard I know already. Darren won't be there, which freaks me out, but I think it will also be good for me. I'm without a junior for the 3rd week in a row, but I'm ok with that. I kind of like doing it on my own. :) Ashley's doneat camp now, but Kelsey will be there for the rest of the summer, so that's really nice. I miss Amber SO much at camp, but I know that God had something else for her. Hopefully she'll come visit sometime. :)

OK! I have to go. I'll try to do this again next weekend....and I will TRY to e-mail. :)

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

"But I trust in your unfailing love, my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he had been good to me." Psalm 13:5

*Calvin :)

Saturday, July 01, 2006

I hate subject/title lines.

Hmm....where oh where do I start?

Wednesday-today was senior high camp...which was really strange. I felt like I had absolutley no idea what I was doing. Which is not the case. I mean, no I don't have it down, but I HAVE been a camp counselor before. So it was wierd to feel so out of it. I was also getting some...ok alot of crap from one guy in particular, and that was really really frustrating and actually pretty intimidating for me. So that kind of added to my inadequate feelings. I'm not totally sure why I felt like that, but I think that by the end of the camp I was feeling a little more confident and capable of actually counselling. I mentioned that guy to Darren and he said that if it happens ever again, I should tell him right away. So that was cool...he's awesome. I SOOOOOOO appreciate him right now. I'm pretty sure that I could get really annoyed with him at some point, cuz we are kind of similar, and I get tired, you know. But he really is awesome.

So tomorrow Ashley is coming to camp, and I am SO pumped!!! It will be really nice to have someone to talk to and laugh with. Every year before I've had Amber or Bev or SOMEONE that I trust around to talk to, and this week I was kind of on my own. I guess I feel like I have to be that go-to girl now, and that means that I can't go to anyone else. That sounds absolutely retarded now that I type it, but that's the jist of it. :) It kinda sucks that I'm in horsemanship both weeks that Ashley's there, cuz then we can't really do any joint cabin afternoons or anything. But whatever. I also don't have a junior this week or next week (as far as I know) and that might be kind of nice. Hopefully I'll still get a break. Oh MAN that would suck to not get a break. Last year my breaks were usually my time with God and pretty much my LIFELINE. Oh brother. This will be interesting.

Today I was VERY surprised to get a visit with LISA from my Africa team! "Wow!!!" :) haha. So yeah, we had good times looking at my pictures and laughing at all the stuff we sort of forgot. She's a great girl...really sincere and caring, and I don't really even know her that well. So it was nice to see someone from the team. I am really missing it alot right now. I got a few more pictures today and I almost CRIED when I saw them! :) It surprised me actually. I didn't think that I still would, but I really really want to go back someday.

I got e-mails from Kerri and Vanessa today, and I was SOOOOOO excited! I'm also really missing school. That's what kind of sucks about going places and meeting people in all those places that you just LOVE....like school and camp and Africa. I'll always have someone that I'm missing. Bah! It's crazy that the summer is half over already, like SUPER crazy, but I'm so excited to go back. It's like, bad for me to look at pictures from school I miss it so much. :)

Kendra's wedding is in two weeks, and I am definitely not going. I just hate it, but it's just too much and would be really awkward with camp. SO....I dunno, I'll send her the plant I started for her. :) We tried it once at school, but she knocked it over early one morning along with the entire contents of her shelf. :) Oh good times.... so now I actually got a plant started for her, and she'll love it. Dang. I hope she doesn't read this. :) Oh well.

Oh yes! Evanescence: My Immortal; full band version....How I love you. :)

Anyway....I need to go. I left dry laundry in the dryer and I HATE wrinkly shirts. :) Hopefully another post will come next weekend.

*Caitlin