I hate subject/title lines.

Hmm....where oh where do I start?

Wednesday-today was senior high camp...which was really strange. I felt like I had absolutley no idea what I was doing. Which is not the case. I mean, no I don't have it down, but I HAVE been a camp counselor before. So it was wierd to feel so out of it. I was also getting some...ok alot of crap from one guy in particular, and that was really really frustrating and actually pretty intimidating for me. So that kind of added to my inadequate feelings. I'm not totally sure why I felt like that, but I think that by the end of the camp I was feeling a little more confident and capable of actually counselling. I mentioned that guy to Darren and he said that if it happens ever again, I should tell him right away. So that was cool...he's awesome. I SOOOOOOO appreciate him right now. I'm pretty sure that I could get really annoyed with him at some point, cuz we are kind of similar, and I get tired, you know. But he really is awesome.

So tomorrow Ashley is coming to camp, and I am SO pumped!!! It will be really nice to have someone to talk to and laugh with. Every year before I've had Amber or Bev or SOMEONE that I trust around to talk to, and this week I was kind of on my own. I guess I feel like I have to be that go-to girl now, and that means that I can't go to anyone else. That sounds absolutely retarded now that I type it, but that's the jist of it. :) It kinda sucks that I'm in horsemanship both weeks that Ashley's there, cuz then we can't really do any joint cabin afternoons or anything. But whatever. I also don't have a junior this week or next week (as far as I know) and that might be kind of nice. Hopefully I'll still get a break. Oh MAN that would suck to not get a break. Last year my breaks were usually my time with God and pretty much my LIFELINE. Oh brother. This will be interesting.

Today I was VERY surprised to get a visit with LISA from my Africa team! "Wow!!!" :) haha. So yeah, we had good times looking at my pictures and laughing at all the stuff we sort of forgot. She's a great girl...really sincere and caring, and I don't really even know her that well. So it was nice to see someone from the team. I am really missing it alot right now. I got a few more pictures today and I almost CRIED when I saw them! :) It surprised me actually. I didn't think that I still would, but I really really want to go back someday.

I got e-mails from Kerri and Vanessa today, and I was SOOOOOO excited! I'm also really missing school. That's what kind of sucks about going places and meeting people in all those places that you just LOVE....like school and camp and Africa. I'll always have someone that I'm missing. Bah! It's crazy that the summer is half over already, like SUPER crazy, but I'm so excited to go back. It's like, bad for me to look at pictures from school I miss it so much. :)

Kendra's wedding is in two weeks, and I am definitely not going. I just hate it, but it's just too much and would be really awkward with camp. SO....I dunno, I'll send her the plant I started for her. :) We tried it once at school, but she knocked it over early one morning along with the entire contents of her shelf. :) Oh good times.... so now I actually got a plant started for her, and she'll love it. Dang. I hope she doesn't read this. :) Oh well.

Oh yes! Evanescence: My Immortal; full band version....How I love you. :)

Anyway....I need to go. I left dry laundry in the dryer and I HATE wrinkly shirts. :) Hopefully another post will come next weekend.

*Caitlin