can't shake this...
I just watched a whole bunch of videos about Sierra Leone on YouTube. I've said it before and I'll say it again: It's like I can't get it out of my mind.
Some of those videos were brutal, some were SO exciting. I heard on one a song that people in Pendembu sang to us....and I saw this crazy bridge that we crossed. But I saw people being brutalized and killed in other ones. I think I'm crazy for wanting to go back. I really did not enjoy my time there. I felt like crap and couldn't eat much of anything for most of the time. The heat makes me feel sick and the culture is just SO completely different from ours. I don't know why I'd ever want to go back. But my heart just breaks for the people there. That can only be from God. There's no way on earth that I am capable of that kind of compassion without Him.
It's different from your typical World Vision commercial type sadness or "compassion"....this is like, I see a face...a woman....a little child, and it's like I know them. The thought that I might have met her or been there and given the people just a little tiny bit of hope....that makes it so much more exciting and doesn't even compare to the difficult health or climate or culture. I just hate that I don't know what to do with this. Going back is a big deal. I'll miss so much here....so many people. And I have this sneaky suspision that saying goodbye for a second time will be even harder than it was last time. I'll want to go back again, I know it.
Oh sigh....what a scary thing to think about. Especially when only God knows what will happen with this....THING....this thing in my heart for Sierra Leone. Please pray for the believers in SL.
*Yeama
Labels: africa
posted by Queen*Caitlin @ 8:20 PM
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hello darling. It's maloway! haha. So, it has been an incredibly hard, emotionally draining day. My dad had a stroke today... He can barely talk and he can't feel his right arm. It is so hard to see him like that. Please pray for him and that he will be able to recover. On the other side though, it has been an incredibly spiritualy uplifting day as well. It was honestly a miracle that they brought him to the hospital they did... They had the head of neurology waiting for him when they got there. Our pastor's wife phoned and said there was a roomful of men at one of my parents' friend's house praying for him and us. The body of Christ is really coming together! I really believe this will be a testament to God's greatness. Nonetheless, please pray. I love you so much! Now that i've come close to losing someone I really love I'm going to tell people that more often!
I find it amazing that we both had pollar opposite experiences in Africa and yet they lead to the same feeling. Well kind of. I am possitive i am going back. Maybe i will be there if you decide to go as well!!!!!! Praying for you.
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