Good....good good good...

What? huh? God is good? Oh yeah....of course. I knew that.

Or so I thought. I realized the other day that God WANTS to bless me and give me what I want. That sounds so selfish...but it's kind of the wording. He knows the desires of my heart, and he WANTS to bless me with those things. Weird. :) I figured out that I always thought that God wanted me to go through struggles and tough times etc....because he wants to teach me something. I thought that I had rough times because I am just so hard and calloused and stubborn that God always had to "resort" to almost like, punishing me I guess. When I was having a hard time or "suffering" in my little issues I think I saw God as the one bringing on the pain, not the one comforting me in the pain. So not true....God does not like to see me in pain or struggling. He WANTS to bless me. I don't get it. I'm just getting onto the tip of the iceberg on this...

God is good....that's really easy to say. Not so easy to understand. He wants to bless us, you guys. Wow....maybe I'll keep this up with what else I find...

And now I have homework. :)


*Caitlin

roommate my roommate.....

...what will I ever do with you? My roomie was being so........AGH!!!! Frustrating. She is having a rough time right now...and I inderstand that. But I have to live with her everyday...every night.... and it's gets rather depressing when she's always down and sad and very close to a breakdown...or so it seems. So I talked to her today, not meaning tell her what I was feeling, I just wanted to know what the heck was wrong. (She has this thing where she won't talk to ANYONE!) She wouldn't really tell me, but she said, "I'm sorry that you're mad at me, but I can't help being sick." Sick? SICK? Agh!!! She asked why I was mad at her, and I told her I didn't think she really wanted to know. But apparently she did. So I told her, and she said "that's not what it is. That's not the problem." BAH!

There was alot more to it than that, but I eventually just got so frustrated I said that I couldn't talk about it right now, I was too angry, and I was just going to take it out on her. Not good. So she's like, "No. Don't leave. I will." Drama drama drama.

I was ticked. So I went and spilled to Vanee, who gave me some suggestions, and then I went to do dishes. When I got back from a random fun time with the dish guys (whoo yeah Spencer and Josh!!!), I had it all planned out how I was going to talk to her and deal with things. Then there was a note on my bed.... it was from Kenny and she was apologizing for....ummm....stuff we talked about. So now...I haven't seen her since we "talked" or attemped to talk...so we'll see what happens. We're supposed to go to town tomorrow, and that could be awkward if we haven't talked.

ANYWAY. I talked to Tanis, my Intro. to Teaching "professor" today. (I hate the word "professor"...it's just weird) I asked her about my idea for my first lesson plan, which is due the next next Monday. I was feeling totally inadequate with this whole teaching thing, but she totally affirmed me and my ideas. It was SO encouraging. I thought that the scripture I chose might be considered a bit of a cop-out cuz it's fairly simple, but she was SO excited about my choice. That was really reassuring. God totally provided in that way.

Anyhoo...I have Bible Study at youth group in half an hour, and then I think it's time for a STARBUCKS RUN!!!! Woo hoo!!! Kerri's mom gave us all (me Vanee and Kristine) a Starbucks card, and we want to put them to good use before the break. Wierd....as much as I am SO frsutrated with some people and stuff right now, I will totally miss some of those people during the break. Funny how that works.

Merry February 15th!!!!!!

*Caitlin

"Sometimes I just wish I was a boy." not.

"My eye flashed before my life!!!" -Karina

"Me and Lindsay should repopulate the earth.....OH!!! NO, not together!!!!" -Kristine :)

Sleeping Beauty, Batman, Veggie Tales, and My Little Pony...

...those are all valentines that I got today. OH BROTHER!!! I pretty much have hated Valentines Day since I was like, 10. This morning I went to Vanessa's room and as soon as I opened the door she was like, "There's like 40 MILLION girls wearing pink today!!! What is with that? I am wearing all black. Black pants black shirt...I'm painting my nails black!!!" Wow, it was funny. I didn't even think about it...I'm wearing brown and green. Later on today, like, after lunch I think, we had a sort of girls' chocolate party. Vanessa busted out her chocolate care package, and we all had our fair share. It was awesome. Vanee is the funniest though...ho man... :)

I went home for supper yesterday. It was actually really fun. I got to do some scrapbooking!!! (as if anyone cares) :) And I played with my sisters....so cute. It was Jenevieve's second birthday, and she knew it! :) We got her to answer the question, "How old are you?" She holds up two fat fingers and sticks out her lips and says, "Ima TWO!" Wow, she's so cute. :)

I also had a really good talk with the second floor dean, Brandi, last night. She's amazing. We could talk for hours....about so many different things. We talked about my friend who's engaged and about my roommate and about our missions trip (she's one of my team leaders) and alot of stuff that we are learning etc... Very refreshing and relaxing. Not very beneficial to the SLEEP side of my life....but that's ok. I needed to RELAX!!! :) Then I realized that my laundry was still downstairs, so I had to go get it and put it on a drying rack. My poor roomie...I am NOT the most graceful human being on the planet, I'm sure I woke her up. :)

Anyway, I have reading to do...

*Caitlin

"We're just working on the joints.....working on them, not smoking them."

-John Bell....my concert choir teacher.... :)

little brothers

aww....my brother is SO DANG CUTE. I mean...cool. :) He's at Youth Alert this weekend, and he's been hanging out with me a lot. :) We played this bungee run game thinger, and he totally whooped my butt. We had so much fun. And he played 4 on 4 basketball today, and I cheered ALOT for him...it was awesome. His team lost (in a really weird random game) in the gold medal game by one point. Bu the played in the All-Star game...and I cheered my face off again. :) Ho man, he's so cool. He's my little brother, but he's definitely more like my big brother. Awww.....

Oh brother! :) Anyway, one of my other little brothers, Jenkin, played Bump with a whole bunch of "big people" and he also kicked butt. He was so cute. And Jayden (his twin) was cheering for him on the sidelines....so cute.

Jeneya (a girl from my youth group) and I did the sumo wrestling in the suits thing. We laughed SO hard!!! We pretty much sucked, but we had SOUND EFFECTS!!! Ha ha...it was sweet. The suits were icky...I could feel other people's body heat stuck in the suit when I got in it. Nasty... and the helmets got really gross, too. But man, it was so fun. Seriously, if you ever get the chance to sumo wrestle...DO IT!

Anyway, I need to go to bed. Actually I probably won't for a while yet. Robyn and Jeneya and I are supposed to play cards. Ha ha. I NEED SLEEP...

*Caitlin

"I fall asleep to the melodious sounds of his BEATIOUS LAUGHTER..." -Vanessa :)

"Caitlin's like, the Energizer Bunner!" -Lindsay no typo

"let's get (dah dah) emotional girls to all wear mood rings...."

"...(dah dah)...so we'll be tipped off, (dah dah) to when they're ticked off..."

I think that's how that song goes. :)

BAH! My roommate has been upset all day, and I have NO IDEA why!!! I just went into the room and she was bawling in her bed. All day she's been walking around listlessly, not talking to anyone. I have no idea what's wrong and I'm worried. I talked to her fiance and HE doesn't even know what's wrong. That's definitely a bad sign. So yeah, I have no idea what to do. I rubbed her back for a while, and now I think she's sleeping. But she needs to talk to someone...

I was doing some atmosphere stuff tonight, and there was a bunch of people goofing off when they were supposed to be getting a job done. I was SO frustrated. For one thing, I'm exhausted. For another thing, I was working really hard to try and get this done. So both of those things added to my frustration. I guess I'm one to talk about how emotional my roommate is. I am just as bad, but it's not usually my sadness/depression that seems to take me over. It's my anger. Maybe I should wear a mood ring... :) NOT!!! Ugh, I hate that song. I hate that band! :)

I talked to Ashley Lupo's mom today. (Ashley's the engaged one) :) It was SO nice!!! I love her so much, it sucks that she lives in GP now. But we talked for almost an hour, and she aske dme about everything. I mean EVERYTHING...It was grand. If you ever need advice, talk to Mrs. Lupo...she's brilliant. :) She told me I should try teaching English as a second language. She thinks I'd be good at it. Who knows? It would be super fun...I might jsut do that. :)

Tomorrow is Youth Alert. I'm not so excited as of this moment, but tomorrow I WILL be!!! I will choose to be enthusiastic and excited and welcoming. I have to. :) But no, really it will be awesome, and God is going to do some great things. My anger and my roommate's mood swings won't hinder him at all. Thank you, Lord. :) Anyway, I'm going to bed. I think I'm a little calmer than I was ten minutes ago...that's a good sign. :)

And I TOTALLY have an ab. :)

*Caitlin

ouchie momma

Helllooo....for those of you who actually read this....pray for my mouth. It hurts. I barely got any sleep last night and all I can eat it cheese and soup!!! BAH! Yeah, it's Youth Alert this weekend and I am SO exhausted, so this painful mouth thing is NOT good. Pray that the pain would go away SOON and that I would be able to get enough sleep. Thanks.... :)

*Caitlin

ORTHO SUCKS

Bleh, I went to the orthodontist today, and my mouth is pretty much throbbing. That or I'm just a wuss. I was in there for like, and hour and a half, it was brutal. But I got along with my mom for the whole ride there and the whole ride back, so that was nice. :) I also got to have a really awesome talk with Brandi, our floor Dean, this morning. She's really concerned about me. She said I just look exhausted. Which I am. I haven't gone to bed before 12:30 since before the Christmas break, and then there was Breakforth and two engagements!

OH YEAH!!!!! I didn't write about the 2nd one! HO man. One of my best and oldest friends in the whole world got engaged on Friday, and I didn't find out until yesterday!!!! Basically, she wanted to hang out on Sat. but I was going to my roommates surprise engagement thinger, do we didn't hang out. The whole time she was like, NO!!!! Don't go to her engagement party, come to mine! But of course, I didn't know that. SOOOOOO in a random string of events, I found out that Ashley, my "old" friend, was engaged from two other people. I had no idea my voice could reach a pitch that high. :) Ho man, I screamed and ran around like a mad woman. Ashley Braun (different Ashley) and I busted out to her car, cuz she was visiting me, and booted it over to the curling rink where Ashley LUPO was. :)

BREATH.

OK, so I freaked out the entire way there, I didn't know what to DO with myself!!! And then I saw Ashley, and we RAN and screamed and cried and hugged for a long time. It was SO cool. She NEVER cries. She cried. We NEVER hug. We hugged. And I could tell that it meant a heck of a whole lot to her that I said I was happy for her. That's a fairly big deal. It's a rough thing to see people leave you and "move on" so to speak. But she is SO happy, and regardless of how she has treated me, I love her, SO MUCH. I am SO excited for her. Wow.....tear. :)

Anyway, I'm going to go do laundry...hurrah. Laundry is the thorn in my flesh....ha...."the pain in my butt". Lol....only a few people get that. If you REALLY want to know, ask me. It's not really that great. Later days.....

*Caitlin

"Jello iiiiisssss..........so foofy." -Kerri's Nathan bah ha!

It's working...ha ha

ok, just making sure it's working. Ha...I am a nerd. :)

Bring on the bling! :)

Well......last night was indredibly fun! My roommate, Kendra, got engaged. WOW!!! I haven't been so on edge in a LONG time. :) I knew all the day before and I was just about bursting every time I saw her. So funny. So...for all the girls out there, she got a rose every hour (hokie dina!!!)....so nice....and then Joel (her fiance :) took her out to supper. I got a ride out to Joel's parents' house and we surprised Kendra. She bawled and bawled...it was really funny. She was SO excited though, and that's good, cuz I was worried that she'd have her little "high" before she saw us, and then come crashing down into emotional oblivion afterwards. Ha ha. Anyway, we came back to the dorm at midnight and our room was filled with balloons and a picture of Kendra's favourite dress with her face on it. Ha, it was cute. All the girls on our floor (almost) came screaming into our room and listened to the story. Sigh....I love the dorm.

Anyway, I am trying to figure this stupid thing out. My last one WOULD NOT work. It was retarded. So yeah, if you have problems with this, please tell me and I will have an expert blogger explain all my mistakes to me. :)

"For God is greater than our hearts and he knows EVERYTHING!!!" 1 John 3:20b (I think) :)

*Caitlin