oh strange me

So...nothing spectacular has happened since I last posted. Oh wait....I just thought of some things that are pretty dang close to spectacular... On the long weekend...so...last weekend...my family went to BC on a sort of missions trip and I stayed home all alone. Don't get me wrong, I love being at home alone! :) I totally psyched myself out a few times late a night, but whatever. I like it. I had a bunch of girls over one night and oh my word did we have fun! We had a chocolate fondue....like....ALOT of chocolate and ALOT of fruit....and talked and laughed and danced...it was grand. When the thunderstorm hit we were (almost) all really excited. I love thunderstorms. So one of the girls suggested we run out in the hail. I knew it would hurt, but we did it anyway. We must have looked absolutely retarded, it hurt like the dickens, but I don't think I've laughed that hard in a long time. :) It was seriously the most fun I've had in months. We'll do it again sometime. :) I'm definitely still LOVING my job. I'm actually going to be very sad when my time there is finished. :) Tomorrow the end of my first month, and I only have another month after that. My boss and I get along SO well....I really enjoy working with her. Yesterday I figured something out on the computer (which is random...I am NOT a computer wiz) and she grabbed me and hugged me and said, "Oh I'm SO EXCITED, Caitlin!!! You're brilliant!" And I was pretty freaked out, but it was cool. I laughed. I feel like in the last couple of weeks I've become really different, in a good way. I come home from work and don't immediately book it down the stairs for the sweet solitude of my room. I play with my little sister (youngest one) almost every day. We made up names for each other....She's *Puddin'*, I'm "Body". Don't ask why. Today we decided that the twins are Peanut and Nougat...and my next bro decided his own name: "Pipes". Gimme a break. :) I'm starting to get over my literally paralyzing fear of dogs...I have to walk past two every morning. And today I walked home in my bare feet because my cute-but-painful pointy-toed shoes killed my feet today at work. :) So in general yeah, I feel different, but good. So good. I don't feel dependent on anyone for how my day goes or to listen to me. Not to say that I never talk to anyone, but it's not like my day totally sucks if something doesn't go as I planned or someone "isn't there for me." You know what I'm saying? I've been going to God more with my issues, and I've SEEN the results of that. It's incredible. I know it's happened before, but now I'm just so much more aware of that and excited about it. I feel more confident than I EVER have, and I'm totally becoming more patient with people. I'm so stoked about camp...it almost outweighs the nerves. :) I have no idea what to expect, as usual, and as usual that bugs me. But God has it all worked out and I have total confidence that he's going to do some incredible things. That alone makes any nerves or fears or insecurities seem ridiculous. BUT...they're still there. I won't deny that. Anyway. This is quite long enough. If my internet fails me now, I will probably roll my eyes and try again another time. :) Adios. *C