Calvin and.....Klein?

Oh dear. Calvin and Klein was my campers' joke of the week....and oh how we LAUGHED and LAUGHED over that. Wow, this week was SO tough, but so good. This 1st junior high week was really good with my cabin, they were SUCH sweeties (SQUEET to you Eagles out there) :) and we had some really good talks and fun times. This week my cabin was alot older (grade 9/10 rather than 7/8) and they did NOT like to talk about themselves EVER. In Bible Study their answers were really general, never ever personal and they rarely answered my questions when I talked to them indiviually.

Music in the mornings was So discouraging for me...I jsut felt like I was doing a crappy job. AND for a part of the week I was actually REALLY frustrated with Darren. (the director) I felt like I couldn't do anything right by his standard. I know that his opinion is not the be all and end all, but it is important to me, cuz he's good at...camp. :) But on Wednesday (I think) Darren talked to me about it, and he said that I was doing an "awesome" job. He said he would take me and Dalen (the other returning senior) on our worst days over some people on their best day. :) He was like, that sounds awful. But I got it. :)

Then on Friday during Bible study, one of my girls said, "I'm not a Christian, but I was thinking aobut what a difference it would make if I was one.) Which was jsut huge. And at the upper campfire that night, another one of my girls said, "I've learned that I can be myself, because that's how God made me, and he loves me just like that, because I'm me." Which was also huge for me, cuz that's something I'm learning and that I told her. THEN a guy camper said that he is learning that he can hear God speak to him in many ways, and this week he heard God in songs. I was so confused.

HOW can I feel like I'm SO inadequate and feel like God just is not or cannot use me, and then wham, there's evidence that he did use me. I know I did NOT work in those kids' lives, cuz I screwed up alot and didn't seem to get anywhere with anyone in my cabin. And for some reason, God chose to use my fumbling and poor attempts at "spiritual conversations" and music. Weird.

Anyway, that was the best best BEST part of camp so far. This week will be hard I know already. Darren won't be there, which freaks me out, but I think it will also be good for me. I'm without a junior for the 3rd week in a row, but I'm ok with that. I kind of like doing it on my own. :) Ashley's doneat camp now, but Kelsey will be there for the rest of the summer, so that's really nice. I miss Amber SO much at camp, but I know that God had something else for her. Hopefully she'll come visit sometime. :)

OK! I have to go. I'll try to do this again next weekend....and I will TRY to e-mail. :)

"Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ." Galatians 1:10

"But I trust in your unfailing love, my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he had been good to me." Psalm 13:5

*Calvin :)