Brain burger and brain fries to go.....

You could really order that right now actually. I'm so fried that wasn't even funny in any way. BAH!!!

I have a death paper due tomorrow...two actually...and I stayed up til 2 last night, got up at 8, and worked on my paper all afternoon....and it's STILL not done. AAAAGH!!! I'm like, the epitome of stress right now. Thank goodness my other massive mother paper is now due FRIDAY instead of MONDAY. ho man...that is so good. ANYWAY...I'm totally done with homework now until after my floor cleans tonight, and I don't even want to talk about it anymore. bleh.

I did my speech yesterday, and that was a HUGE relief. I have to admit that I was pretty freaking intimidate by pretty much everyone in my class though. I talked about courtship....not the most popular concept these days, and I could just feel the tension when I kind of challenged some typical standards. Alot of people sunk down in their chairs and avoided eye contact with me at all costs. In a way I guess that's good, obviously I hit a nerve, but it was also really hard to talk to people who looked so much like they hated me. :)

The whole, "What are YOU doing next year?" thing has started again. It really bothers me. I don't KNOW what I'm doing next year, and I'm ok with that. I think. But it still gets me worried when so many people seem to know exactly what they want to do with their lives after the PRBI Bubble. But I talked to Kristine...who's awesome...and she's sort of in the same boat. Hopefully, I'll figure something out. It just sucks that people are asking me already. I just need to not let it worry me.

Anyway. My brother's here, and I don't want to rant anymore. Although it did feel real good while it lasted. On to bigger and better things...like cleaning my room! Woo!!!

*Caitlin

Remember the Weekenders?

HO man, I loved that show. And now it's the weekend, and I am feeling a serious urge to watch the Cool Kids lean on logs....and trees....and fences.

OK. I think only a few people will get that, but that is ok. It's all part of my extreme randomness of this week. :) Last night was care groups, and ours was SO good! We made pies for our brother care group and then surprised them with the pies. We made it sound like they were in trouble, and then we all bust out giggling and stick these huge awesome saskatoon pies in front of them. It was priceless. Karina and I also challenged our girlies to be more open and real with each other. Our care group is supposed to be a support, and we weren't really doing that. So it was really good. We had so much fun.

And oh joy, yesterday Rachelle and I figured out a way to keep our heat-lacking room warm without blowing the breaker every 5 minutes! YAAAAAAAY!!!! Ho man, that seriously made my day. So now after every class Rachelle finds me warming my toes in front of our dear little heater, Max. :) Yes, we named the heater. Don't ask.

Oh yes. It feels so good to be done classes for another few days. Yeah, I have a ginormous exam to write tomorrow which I haven't studied for yet, and four massive-value papers due in about a week, but it's all good. :) I'm gonna hang out with my dad and littlest sis and Robyn tonight. I'm SO pumped to watch the Wolves play. I love watching b-ball of any sort...so we'll have fun I'm sure.

Anyway..this post has absolutely no point. Just totally random. I'm just so pumped for a weekend. This week felt forever and a day long. Sigh....only three more weeks in this semester though, and then I'm 3/4 of the way done school. Oh that's awful...definitely not thinking about that anymore. Ok, my brother is here. I'm out. :)

*Caitlin

crazy youtube movie!

Go to youtube.com and see if you can find the movie of "Igor Falecki." He's a 4-year-old drummer and he's stinkin awesome. It's really cool, it made me laugh. :)

*C

crazy youtube movie!

Go to youtube.com and see if you can find the movie of "Igor Falecki." He's a 4-year-old drummer and he's stinkin awesome. It's really cool, it made me laugh. :)

*C

Time....Trust...and a Truly Random Girl

Oh Time. I can never decide if it passes too fast or too slow. Sometimes it's both. In matter of homework, it passes WAY too fast...in other things....wahaaaaaay too slow. :) Usually I never have enough...rarely do I have too much. Sometimes I need to TAKE time to relax and do nothing and talk to God. I've had more time to do that lately, and thank the Lord.

HO MAN, the last little while has been soooo weird and stretching and scary and emo. :) Yesterday at work I was alone for the morning as usual. Only this morning I dropped a bottle of cleaner on my toe, pinched my finger in a door, and then I whacked my ankle on a bed frame. That was IT! I just plopped down on the bed and cried. I didn't even care who walked past, I just cried. It was the most unsatisfying cry I've had in a while. Usually I feel so much better after a cry...but after this one there was still....a hole. That's the only way I can describe it. So during my break I wrote a big letter to God. I do that alot, and this time was really good for me.

I'm AWFUL at trusting God....or anyone really. But somehow everything I learn about myself and my life and God has something to do with trust. TRUST TRUST TRUST...ALL THE FREAKING TIME! But something else I've learned this year so far is that God will never give up on me. I wonder sometimes why he doesn't, but he won't. He loves me despite of myself. So it's crazy that I can't trust someone who loves me so much and will ALWAYS love me like that.

Basically, I want to make the calls in my life, and recently God has been very obivous like, "NOPE, my way is SO much better!!! Take up your cross and follow me." I've been learning in classes what it means for me to "take up my cross". Basically that is submitting totally to God's authority. That means a whole lot more than saying, "Jesus, you are in control." It is so much more than that. I am learning to submit every single decision and situation and relationship to God's perfect plan and control. Craziness.

So I've been an extremely random person lately. Just ask my amazing roommate. Wow has she had to put with alot these last few days especially. :) And yet today she stuck a note in my box thanking me for being such an "awesome" roommate and close friend. She said that my honesty and openness and realness (is that a word?) really challenge her. That encourages me so much, cuz I really struggle with that, too. I don't want people to know what I'm really like!!! :) But it seems that when I do let them in, they like me even more somehow. That's definitely the Love of God showing itself real through them.

But yeah, I have been a dang random girl lately. I think it's a way to relieve stress and sort of held-in emotions. :) My dance moves have significantly improved, along with my burping skills (thanks to my roommate's BAD influence!!! :) and I just have to laugh at everything and anything that strikes me as funny. Unfortunately those funny things usually occur in class or chapel or sometime when I'm supposed to be QUIET. The other day Rachelle and I were discussing alot of random things, too. Like how I think Red Green is hilarious, our love/hate relationship with Jesse McCartney, and how moose pepperoni after taste makes me puke. :) HO man...I laugh out loud when I think of how random and stupid I can be, but it feels good, too....not to care what people are thinking. This is a new thing!!! :)

Anyhoo...I need to go read and clean and generally just get stuff done. I did really awesome at that last night and today, so that was awesome, too. HUZZAH for being PRODUCTIVE!!! :)

Thank you Beach Boys for serenading me as I brain puked my mind all over the internet once more. Barbara Ann Forever!!! :)

*C

"Ducks are so majestic!" -Troy from my bro care group

"Everett is just the biggest waste of skin!" -My boss on the creepy assitant manager at work :)

I hate speeches.

Wow, I had the craziest day ever yesterday. I started at 7:30 and didn't stop until like, 2:30 in the morning! Oh the joys of college life and a really awesome roommate to talk to forever. :) Today I hardly got any homework done...and I'm sort of procrastination right now. But I figure if I do some brain puking, maybe it'll be easier to focus tonight.

Last night my roomie and I got SOOOO lost on our way to a basketball game, and I was just freaking out. But it was still pretty fun, Rachelle sure thought it was anyway. We got to the game and stayed until half time, when we left so I could meet Kaleb at the church. We got there, and no one's there, so I'm like, ok. Whatever...I'll call his house. After a long series of confusing events, Kaleb's roommates came to pick me up. While we waited for them, Rachelle (my roomie), two other girls from school and I were hardcore dancing to come "Cuban Beats" music.

Part way through our little dance party, Rachelle has the brilliant idea to get out of the vehicle and dance in the parking lot. I knew that my ride was coming soon, so I was like, this could be REALLY awkward. These guys driving up to three girls dancing like mad to some random reggae music. Yep. It was not a pretty mental picture. So as they decided to get out the car, I'm SCREAMING at the top of my lungs "RACHELLE!!! Get in the vehicle!!! NO NO NO!!! They're gonna come...oh man. Oh come on get in!!!" The girls jumped out anyway, shook it for a few seconds, and whaddya know, my ride comes around the corner. Rachelle literally dives back into the car and starts laughing her head off. I couldn't do anything but roll my eyes and go apologize to Steve for my random friends. He thought it was just awesome, so that's umm...good, but I was kinda embarrassed. :)

Oh well....last night was definitely an adventure. Not sure if that story made any sense whatsoever, but that's ok. I feel a little more homework-ready now. Here I go...off to conquer the world, or at least my speech anyway.

*C

Beading Reak, tood gimes, and my rovely loommate

Oh Reading Break...I don't know if I love you or hate you.

I had big big plans for this break. I said at the beginning of the semester that "I HAVE to do homework this break or I WILL die." But as usual....I BARELY did ANYTHING! Oh joy, oh bliss. I slept in ALOT, hung out with Amber and Kelsey, saw a hockey game with Justin, Ashley, and my brother, went to Bev's b-day, and hung out at Kaleb's parents' house.

Kelsey, Amber, and I were soooooo incredibly random and boring all night. :) We read this awesome book that MUST be explained in person (I'm the Jing of the Kungle!!!! :) videotaped our normal random selves, and did voice-overs for Chicken Run. It was very random and awesome.

It was so good to see Bev and Britt at Bev's birthday party! Oh wow...I haven't seen them in forever and a day.....so they had to have the low down on my entire life, or at least one major chunk of it. :) Britt is going to Breakforth and apparently we're in a room with Erin (from camp) and Britt's friend Josie. That makes me feel a whole lot better about going...at least I sort of know all of them.

After the hockey game we went to Denny's and LAUGHED our heads off at everything and nothing. I LOVE Ashley Braun. Her sense of humor never ceases to amaze me. :) We had to run across the extremely icy road after Justin and Ashley and some random older lady almost wiped out. Ashley pretty much dragged me across, and on the way back she just biffed it on the corner and lay there laughing and moaning, "Ow! OW!!! My bum!!!" Sigh....she is wonderful. :) I'm actually just glad that it was her and not me. :)

Yesterday was....interesting. It was awesome as usual to go to Kaleb's parents' house...but I was sort of out of it after when we were driving home. And now it is proven that I am a huge wuss; all I did was SIT on the back of the ski-doo and I'm sore. Pathetic, I know. :) But I discovered that I'm not as scared as I thought I would be, and winter isn't SO bad. :) It was fun.

Now I just cannot wait to see my roommate!!!! Oh wow I missed her. She is one of my favourite people ever....and we actually get along really really well. That is a huge answer to prayer. I was a little worried, and she was, too. :) We agreed at the start of the year to be honest and tell each other if we're annoyed, but we haven't even needed to. Huzzah! :)

ANYHOO...this is really long. I'm gonna go see if Rachelley is here! :) HUPID LOOKIN STAT!!!

*Waitlin Cilson